I highly recommend Lisa a Romano. If you were raised by parents who experienced trauma of their own I highly recommend.
I was raised by a borderline mother and a father who was raised by an alcoholic. This caused me a lot of trauma. It was a therapist who "diagnosed" me with trauma but it was Lisa's advice and insight that has helped me heal. Heal along with not blaming my parents but acknowledging what happened and "letting go in love and light."
Thank you for sharing your beautiful experience Christina! Childhood trauma arrests us at the neurological level, and because the mind is more subconscious than conscious and is designed to avoid pain, often we don't realize we are stuck in shame of the past, repeating what was unresolved in childhood. My mission is to help wounded adult children, from any and every generation to awaken so they can understand their subconscious patterns, because until we can see a hole in the wall, we can't fix it. Good for you for finding this space of solace, forgiveness and deep understanding...that's awesome...Keep growing and glowing Dear One!